I don’t know if anyone knows the game Terraria (basically a world building/adventure side scroller, for more info; http://store.steampowered.com/app/105600/) but the premise of it freaks me out. I use to play RuneScape, back in the good ol’ days, and I think one of the reasons I stopped was an aversion to the way you play those kinds of games. Terraria receive a lot of criticism when it was released from Minecraft fans, as it essentially the same game, only 2D rather than 3D, and with more of a focus on adventure based gaming than blatant survival. But I really don’t think Minecrafters have anything to worry about. Minecraft is a beautiful game because of the Sandbox aspect of it. You can literally create anything. Mainly people create beautiful landscapes, buildings, tributes to games and Minecraft itself are also common. However it was the very creative idea of a puzzles that opened my mind to the limitless creation-space Minecraft really is. My friend once constructed a challenge that depended on the user having computer-code knowledge in order to crack it. This was beyond me of course, but even still, for weeks I couldn’t get over what a clever idea that was. 

Of course you can do this sort of thing in Terraria too, but you are quite limited in comparison. As for RuneScape…. I don’t know what I was thinking. It’s mostly made up of chatting with random strangers and repetitive and boring mineral/food/rune collection. Quest are kind of cool - but they are not good compared to real adventure based games. So RuneScape is just a kind of bad substitute of lots of good aspects of real games. Or at least that would be how it seems to me. 

Moving here has been strange. And hasnt moved at all in the order I expected it too. As I write this I sit in the corridor waiting for my 3.15 ‘Homer to Hollywood’ tutorial, which will unboubtley begin at at least 3.30. Some physiology students are doing some ridiculous experiment involving marking distances on the floor and counting how many steps and how long it takes different, random people to walk down the corridor. Startlingly reminiscent of highschool really. Doing an Arts degree is supposed to be a breeze. But making a bed is also supposed to be a breeze, and on some days I feel so frustrated by that simple task, that it is really no wonder I am stressing. I have this idea that this move would be easier than Japan, becuase, well first of all the obvious fact, it’s nowhere near as far away. But also it didn’t seem that far away. And culturally I supposed it isn’t. BUT IT IS STILL 1000KM AWAY FROM HOME. I don’t know how this could have not occurred to me. Also, I didn’t realise until it came time to hug my friends and family goodbye, but this move represents so much more than the move to Japan did. This is supposed to be me leaving the nest, snatching my independence and going with it. And I feel like I am having a very half-hearted go at this. I can’t figure out if moving in with Ben would be a step forward or a step back in this respect. I suppose he represents comfort, but since when has comfort been equivalent to regression?

“I will not wait to love as best as I can. We thought we were young and that there would be time to love well sometime in the future. This is a terrible way to think. It is no way to live, to wait to love. “ 

“Because secrets do not increase in value if kept in a gore-ian lockbox, because one’s past is either made useful or else mutates and becomes cancerous. We share things for the obvious reasons: it makes us feel un-alone, it spreads the weight over a larger area, it holds the possibility of making our share lighter. And it can work either way - not simply as a pain-relief device, but, in the case of not bad news but good, as a share-the-happy-things-I’ve-seen/lessons-I’ve-learned vehicle. Or as a tool for simple connectivity for its own sake, a testing of waters, a stab at engagement with a mass of strangers.” 

- Dave Eggers

I suppose I think about alot of things. But I do not know how you could ‘count’ thoughts. Is a thought a topic? Or every sentence that occurs to you in your head regarding a particular topic? Every word even? Does a thought have to be something you thought of? Or does thinking about an idea someone just posed count as your thoughts as well?

Earlier today I almost caught myself reading for the purposes of having read something. Rather than reading because reading is lovely and beautiful and one of the top three ways to pass time in the world. I feel more and more that I can’t belong to a single place. Problem is I like feeling tied down in something physical. My room is filled with everything I like and care about, and yet I feel like I am sitting on it. Not in it. I think all that talking about leaving has made me feel like that time is now.

It’s not!

It’s funny how the first thing the new Facebook layout lists is your occupation. Is that really the most important part of your life? It sure as hell isn’t the most important part of mine. How many people really get to do something they’re passsionate enough about to want to scream to the masses their position? I couldn’t tell you. More XP needed…

Weeds is amazingly well written. 

I wish I was Trotsky.

Imagine if someone didn’t understand the laundry and used the dryer before the washing machine every time.

I promised you on an ocean of Mother of Pearl, gold and indigo,

Cut through the waves, I watched you swim away.

I’ll never love you more than today.

Would you be there, be there for me?

- Foals (Miami)